Were you just venting - and all of us came along with FIX IT advice!
Let me try again...
Vacilating between anger and confusion is tough. And it is tough going though all this while being a stable parent for your kids.
You have brought up a a broad spectrum of D related issues that are unfortunately a part of the D rollercoaster.
Vent away as you need to. It is clear that you understand the issues involved. You will do fine - have faith that the issues will sort themselves out in your head as they become relevant during the different phases of the D.
Feel free to ask for what you want in your post - Fixit Advise wanted, Empathy Wanted or please just LISTEN!
