Make things better by looking ahead....

[sage]

was poking around on old threads and found one where the S. had another a while "piecing" because they "didn't think they'd be forgiven for the first". Good Lord.

I will hand my h his head on a platter if I heard that! Not to be invalidating or anything (really).

I've spent so much of our m. feeling "doomed" to having my h cheat on me -- not because of him (really, really, although I don't blame him for hearing it that way) but because it had been beaten into my head that "men cheat then leave" (sorry guys!) AND the message is THAT much stronger when one feels so horribly unloveable anyway.

Now I've been spending precious moments of my life contemplating a continuation of the a...this is a ROPE that NEEDS to be dropped by Sage! Let me finally, perversely and apologetically acknowledge that my h. is the only one who can be responsible for his fidelity. I think I'll spend my time on the things that I CAN control -- like my own behavior.

arrgh. I DID say I was going to take a mental break, right?

Sage