Folks -- thanks so much for the wonderful support and insights. This place is amazing...and you guys are awesome.
I think yesterday's "outburst" was a real step forward for me -- a catharsis of sorts -- I've got lots more thoughts swirling around in my head -- all still related -- about unconditional love and worthiness and how to raise concerns and ....they'll come out over time AND my plan is to try to formulate them in an "actionable" way -- in other words -- WHAT works when I get in a fearful state, WHAT works to get me to slow down and listen more, etc.
Three good things from yesterday: 1. H sounded very pleased when I called him yesterday afternoon -- even said he was really glad it was me.
2. H planned a "surprise date" for us --
3. H. made a special note of appreciating my "hard work" -- commenting that it had given him the freedom at home...
I'm relaxing this weekend -- taking a load off, mentally and physically!
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
was a real step forward for me -- a catharsis of sorts -- I've got lots more thoughts swirling around in my head -- all still related -- about unconditional love and worthiness and how to raise concerns and ....they'll come out over time AND my plan is to try to formulate them in an "actionable" way -- in other words -- WHAT works when I get in a fearful state, WHAT works to get me to slow down and listen more, etc.
