Make things better by looking ahead....

[sage]

Hey LL -

it is scary to be loved unconditionally isn't it.

It sure is. Not to be melodramatic but I have NEVER been loved that way -- and I've been dramatically unsuccessful at loving h that way. He and I come from two hugely different backgrounds in that regard.

I know this is going to sound perverse but since I grew up with conditional love I find it someone comforting (but TIRING!) -- In theory (just in theory) if love WERE conditional -- you could be your BEST self and GET it. When it's unconditional -- it's uncontrollable...and I've always been all about controlling my surroundings.

Working on it...

Letting myself be loved and loving him w/o reservation -- now that sounds nice (but scary).

regarding a display of strength....well I can tell you that my h's ow once said to me that it's easier to keep the family together...that's a load of crap..much much easier to throw it all away and start a new. you are showing huge strength.

LL

Thanks for this -- I know it's true. more and more I'm amazed that you have not gone over and punched miss cancer pants in the nose! (has she moved yet???)

Sage