Finding my way out of the dark

[mishka422]

fig - THAT IS AWESOME! Thank you! I couldn't seem to figure out that difference but it makes perfect sense.

Called my friend at lunch and gave her the whole saga from last night and today. I wanted her input. She's been my best friend since we were 14 and has been through D but not MLC. She came out of her D a much stronger person than she ever was and is such a great support for me. She brought up a few things that gave me pause. Is my H trying to soften me up for mediation? Is he trying to get me to open up to him in some way so that he can try to get something to use against me (not that there is anything - I'm boring as can be)? She reminded me to not forget all the lies and betrayals and that he still can not be trusted until he ears that trust back. In my head I know all those things but my heart doesn't want to know them. I want to trust that these are little pushes back toward me but again, with NO EXPECTATIONS of anything.

Am I right to be cautious or should I just go with the flow and let it all be what it is?