Really though don't ask H to read the book. Keep whats there your secret.

Also if you don't have friends that you can vent to around you try not to talk about it to them as it will make them run the other way and make you look needy and whiney. Vent here as much as you wish and we will listen and try to offer comfort and help.

Wish you the best.

JAK

You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez