Meredith - your 5 years..

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Meredith - you had brought up something a little while back and I have been pondering it. It was in regards to me filing for D or him or whatever. You said..."what will it change.." or something to that affect -it was a good question.

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So simply put...the only reason to get a D is to cut my connection to him and free myself. That is it. I dont know that it is time - but I dont know that it isnt. So here I sit back to where we were so long ago. I have 3 options.
1)DO
2)Dont
3)Sit still until I know what to do..

(I think I will choose option 3) =)

Option 3 sounds good. Very wise decision.

I wish I had that choice to make for myself. Yes, I'm feeling a little pity-party-ish. Just got back from the lawyer, and I'm feeling down, down, down. Actually, I think I'm sad, sad, sad, and scared, scared, scared. I will go back and read the post above about stopping negative thoughts.