Finding my way out of the dark

[mishka422]

My C told me last week that I am a people pleaser which is not necessarily a bad thing except when you don't do anything at all to please yourself as well. That has been my problem for years, I haven't done anything really to please me. I bend over backwards to make everyone else in my life comfortable and happy and forget me or run out of time for me.

All that effort and H still wasn't happy. Again, back to "no one can make you happy except yourself". So no more of that from me. I will do what is necessary for my family, be kind and considerate, but I won't break myself for them anymore.

H sent me a text about an hour ago to tell me he was taking our son to lunch (winter break at school) since he had to bring his cell phone back to him that he had left in his car last night. We had some banter back and forth and he asked if I would like him to pick up something for me for lunch...etc, etc.. He just sent another message a few minutes ago to tell me that he is taking S13 to an activity place (one of those jump zone places) with one of his school friends and dropping him and the kid's mom is going to bring them home in a few hours. Right after that he sends me a sound file that is the "Pina Colada Song". You all know that one....do you know all the words?

I was tired of my lady
We'd been together too long
Like a worn-out recording
Of a favorite song
So while she lay there sleeping
I read the paper in bed
And in the personal columns
There was this letter I read

"If you like Pina Coladas
And getting caught in the rain
If you're not into yoga
If you have half a brain
If you'd like making love at midnight
In the dunes on the Cape
Then I'm the love that you've looked for
Write to me and escape."

I didn't think about my lady
I know that sounds kind of mean
But me and my old lady
Have fallen into the same old dull routine
So I wrote to the paper
Took out a personal ad
And though I'm nobody's poet
I thought it wasn't half bad

"Yes I like Pina Coladas
And getting caught in the rain
I'm not much into health food
I am into champagne
I've got to meet you by tomorrow noon
And cut through all this red-tape
At a bar called O'Malley's
Where we'll plan our escape."

So I waited with high hopes
And she walked in the place
I knew her smile in an instant
I knew the curve of her face
It was my own lovely lady
And she said, "Oh it's you."
Then we laughed for a moment
And I said, "I never knew."

That you like Pina Coladas
Getting caught in the rain
And the feel of the ocean
And the taste of champagne
If you'd like making love at midnight
In the dunes of the Cape
You're the lady I've looked for
Come with me and escape

I'm freaking out! I may have blundered but I'm going to do it anyway....I asked him if he had plans tonight. He said he didn't know, why. I asked him if he would like to have dinner together. Waiting on a response......I am really nervous about this but I feel like he is reaching out to me and I want to be open and friendly with him.

What do you guys think?