Meredith - your 5 years..

[cagzmom]

Meredith - you had brought up something a little while back and I have been pondering it. It was in regards to me filing for D or him or whatever. You said..."what will it change.." or something to that affect -it was a good question.

I have thought about it and FOR ME...the ONLY thing it would change is that I would allow myself to be "Available" to the opposite sex. Truthfully that is it. As it stands now I am not - I made BOTH of my kids a promise that I would NOT date until we were D. Regardless of what the world says...seperated is not divorced. Why? Well -- if you go to get married (not to say any of these MLC'rs or WAS would - but if they wanted to) THEY CANT...why?? Because they are already married.

So simply put...the only reason to get a D is to cut my connection to him and free myself. That is it. I dont know that it is time - but I dont know that it isnt. So here I sit back to where we were so long ago. I have 3 options.
1)DO
2)Dont
3)Sit still until I know what to do..

(I think I will choose option 3) =)