Make things better by looking ahead....

[sage]

Had a great weekend in Montreal -- drove up Saturday -- got there in good time with little hassle. We had a bite to eat, relaxed a bit, then went to the Expos game (which they won with a walkoff homerun!). Had a late dinner and went to bed.

Sunday AM had a giant breakfast then again off to the Expos game (another victory!). Drove home, stopping in Burlington Vt for dinner (that was a mistake! took FOREVER! but the food was good!). Got home late, late, late!

Monday was a lazy day -- I'd been fighting a cold all weekend and I just kind of let it take over....went to the gym, did a few errands, watched the Sox stomp all over the hapless Yankees ( ) and then out to a movie. H and I had a 2 minute snippy fight (it was pouring, I felt like he was taking forever to open umbrella, he told me to "chill out" , I got splashed by a car, etc! I was a real jerk, I apologized, he apologized, we recovered nicely!).

I'm just feeling so good for everything that's going on for us right now. H was really physically affectionate over the weekend (holding hands, hugging me, etc) and this morning I got my "in bed hug"! He's also been going out of his way to tell me I'm beautiful and sexy -- words that a woman needs to hear when her hair is frizzy from rain, her nose is red from her cold and she feels like CRAP!!!

There are times when I catch myself feeling a little panicked -- do I know how to do this? Is he bored? Am I as interesting, sexy, romantic, whatever as ow? Is he happy? And then I remind myself that calmness and serenity ISN'T boring, that I'm prone to creating crises! That today is a GOOD day and we can build on that to have all the romance and sexiness and wonder that we want and need. Knock wood but twice over the last few weeks, the little voice in my head has said "I think we're going to make it". Nice to hear it say something pleasant for a change!

Will definitely catch up with all of you today!

Sage