H & I are getting on really well, positive interaction, we spend time together with the kids, he has started to phone me at work again and emails me (mainly to do with the kids or work).
Last night we had S2's birthday party at a soft play centre, we got on well, talked together, H came back to the house to see S2 open his presents and he stayed and put the boys to bed so i could leave for my yoga class.
Then this morning 2 things happened, which shoudn't get me down but are and i'm trying really hard to think positive thoughts and remember the progress we have made.
I mentioned to my colleague (i know i shoudn't) that H was moving into a new flat on Friday and she made a comment that it was part of H's initial plan to move to a bigger place and move on.
The second thing is that my SIL emailed me to say she was planning a surprise 40th birthday party for my BIL (H's brother, lives 100miles away) in a couple of weeks time and we were all invited. I accepted on behalf of the kids and myself and said we would stay the night. I forwarded the email onto H and told him I had accepted and was staying over, did he want to come?. He has replied and said he will go to the party but he may not stop the night. I haven't asked him why, do you think i should? b/c i'm assuming its b/c he will have to share a bed with me. He wouldn't come with me at New Year but he did take the boys up and stay over after NY.
It all makes me think that he meant what he said when he said he doesn't love me and all this positive friendly interaction is to ease his guilty concious and to co-parent the boys.
I don't know what to do now? He seems to take his cue from me, if i'm happy, he's happy, if i phone/text/email he does, if I go distant he does. Any ideas or thoughts welcome, or is it time yet to start admitting defeat?
x Eve
P/A confirmed 5/03/08
03/08 H said affair over, I dont think it is, h still doesn't want marriage
T: 13 M: 8 D:20 & 17 from Previous M S: 8 & 4 BS: May 07 ILYBNILWY S: 13/10/07
