Make things better by looking ahead....

[sage]

This is KEY! Do you mean you still look at stuff they wrote (literally) or just ruminate over the memory of it?

Just ruminating...I don't actually have any of the emails. Some of it is just so silly...it's weird what sticks in my mind! like, her emailing him about Julie Andrews and Christopher Plummer coming to town -- "have you ever been to anything like this?" -- well, the Sound of Music is one of my favorite movies so that screws that up (if I let it). Or the one where she wrote "you've always taken such good care of me when I've been sick" -- what does that mean? or the one where she stated that she wanted to go out to a "real" place for a date (ah, ow, such is your lot in life!). And, of course, all the ILYs over and over and over again -- the emails where she talks about sharing dreams with each other -- the pet names (arrgh) -- and the stupid last email that she sent (well, before the ones she sent AFTER I knew) about having "fuzzies on my face from" his shirt. FUFUFUFUFUFUFUFU.

She ain't worth one more of your neurons firing!

Ain't that the truth!

Sage