Hey Cog thanks for the compliment too, I forgot to mention that before. You always know how to make my Day. Anyway, I have been in a rut of thinking too much about this and focusing on all these changes. I am going to trust the ebb and flow and just relax a bit. ( or try to anyway)
He told me the other day " I am still wearing my ring..." In a Happy kid like voice......
I told him I was very Happy. Also the ILY's are still coming, and he says it more like a statement . Like he is not concerned if I say it back. I try hard not to miss him and also I try hard not to let my mind wander. He sometimes has a lot of free time and I just wonder? No Biggie just me letting go of the old him............
I called him earlier and we only had a few minutes to talk and he said " awwwwwwww, only 2 minutes left ( I was using a international phone card) I will get a card later and call you..." Even if he doesnt call the fact that he said that makes me smile. This is amazing really.. I feel so blessed. So I need to keep up with my letting go and trusting him. At times it has felt like I was walking on ice, taking small steps so I wouldnt slip.
I want to enjoy this and feel Happy , feel content. And you are right my Bliss may not be someone elses Bliss ~but it is mine~!!!!!!!!!!
He told me to go outside while I was on the phone with him to watch the eclipse for a bit with him, I said it is -5 below out there and I have a nitegown on , I just showered and I am barefoot,,, he says......" come on do it anyway just look at it" So I opened the front door like a kid on Christmas morning and saw it, He then says" I love you , have a good nite and I will call you later..." The kids and I were all so excited to see it with him on the line.
I also went to my first ZUMBA class today at the YMCA ( the kids and I braved the cold and walked to the Y it is @7 blocks away.) LLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDD IT!!!!!!!!!!! The time flew by, my kids worked on their homework and then played in a play area desinged just for kids 10 and under. So I am keeping busy and having fun too.
