So does this mean we're on the mend?

[Michael Mc C]

Haven't posted in a while now. Let's see, what's been happening...

Okay, the biggest, of course, is she told me that Divorce is no longer something she's interested in. She wants to remain here, remain married but she admits that she's not sure why (love, kids, easier, etc.) I don't mind the honesty, truly appreciate it actually, but it's still not the "What the hell was I thinking? Of course I love you. Look what I was about to do to us" that I had been hoping for. She has agreed that unless we do something to help her find out WHY, things won't change all that much for the better.

Reality is, I guess, there are still a lot of questions in her mind as to how we got here and why. Also, I'm sure she's really starting to consider the amount of work it's going to take to get things back on track. Hell, I'm a little nervous about that myself.

We have had some great days and nights.

I went out with BIL/GF and some new friends on Friday night. I had WAAAAY too much fun and slept over. When I woke up on Saturday around 11:00 I had 5 text messages from my wife. I was sure I was going to get hammered by her (she has to be at work by 9:00). Not one of the messages was angry and in fact 3 of the messages were joking around with my soon-to-be hung over self.

She ran out of gas yesterday on the way to school and asked me to come rescue her. Some guys stopped to help but because she was on a hill (about 15% grade), the small amount of gas they put in wasn't helping at all. They tried pushing the car UP the hill and over to the OPPOSITE side of the road. I have no idea what they thought it would accomplish but all it did was nearly get them run down by my car, which ended up stuck against the curb blocking an entire lane of traffic as it rolled back towards them.

I showed up, put more gas in but the car still wouldn't start. I pushed the car (while in the driver's seat) the rest of the way over the curb, cut the wheel so the car backed across the other lane and into a level driveway. I then pushed it back out into the road and coasted it down the hill into a parking lot. Started fine... What a HERO!!!

And she was VERY pleased but no more than a very energetic thank you (which, by the way, is so much better than the 'thanks' you get when someone feels that all you've done is fulfill an obligation).

Okay, rambling again. The last couple of things I want to mention is that I feel we COULD be piecing this thing back together but I hesitate to move to that board only because we have not yet decided on what our next steps are going to be.

Finally, it seems that the fabled ILY is just around the corner, but always JUST AROUND THE CORNER. Sometimes I see it in her eyes, or hear it in her voice. Could be wishful thinking, of course.

That's it for now.