Yes, after I typed in May 5, I thought, I shouldn't have done that. You're right, of course - May 20!
The shrink says I have done my grieving. I have definitely cried and mourned during the past 2 years (every time we'd break up). I think I'm through mourning.
Yes, I am trying to turn my attention elsewhere. I'm trying to get a life, trying to enjoy other things and other people. I realize that the old relationship is gone. IF we started seeing each other again, it would have to start all over, hopefully friends first. We jumped into bed too early the first time around and I think we'd both be less anxious this time. I know she'd want to find out if I had truly changed before we jumped back in to a "relationship." We've both learned a lot and would take it slow. I would want to jump in but I would restrain myself.
I'm still working on focusing on me and letting go of being clingy, needy, dependent, etc. I really won't know how I'm going to do until I have the opportunity to "test it." I've never been like this with any of my previous partners (male or female). I really don't know why it's been like this with her. The shrink says it's because we were passionate about each other and most relationships are not. They are usually just "lukewarm" and "comfortable." Which is fine with most people. But once you've experienced the passion, you will never want anything else! That's why I have said if I can't have this person, I may just stay single. However, I do realize that I could possibly meet and fall in love passionately with another person.
Do you still think I need to send a "generic" thinking of you card in the next few weeks? The shrink has said before that I don't want to disappear off the radar.
Thanks for your wisdom. Are you sure you're not a psychologist?
