I still haven't confronted H about the receipt. I am waiting for the right time to present itself. I prayed for God to let me know the right time, so H would be less likely to freak out about it, and maybe tell the truth, although I think he is still in MLC, and will lie at the drop of a hat anyway.
I guess they have a hard time letting go of ow, and even if our M is seeming to get better, with him telling me he loves me, and isn't leaving me, and stuff like that, there is still the fact that he won't let go of ow. I know it's not all about ow, but it s a problem to me, one that unless and until it is resolved, I will never rest easy in our R. And, I know I can never believe H is being totally truthful with me about ANYTHING. For instance, the bracelet he got me for Valentine's Day, he said he had gotten it a while back, but he actually bought it on the day before or the day of Valentine's Day. Why lie about THAT?? Do they not even know the difference between a lie and the truth anymore??
This MLC cr*p is so tiring to me, and sometimes I wish I could just tell him to leave until he gets his head together on what he really wants, but I also know if he is out there floundering, ow, or some other ow, will snatch him up at his most vulnerable, so I am committed to standing, and when this is over, I will most likely need to be committed to a psych ward for a long rest.
