Sure in the beginnng I wasnt quite as "strong" per say and I DO have my moments of bursting into tears, But I guess I just give it to myself as havng a bad day or moment, or whatever. For the most part I just kinda plug along taking one day at a time.
Last week I was running my daughter to a friends house and had crocs on in my snowy driveway and slipped and twisted and slammed my leg into car..it hurt a lot and I thought for a second I broke my leg. And in that second of wondering if I broke my leg it hit me...." I was alone" My H would not be around to take me to emergency room. My H wouldnt even care. My H wouldnt be the one to talk to Drs. MY H wouldnt be the one to prop my leg up on pillows and bring me motrin. I couldnt stop crying over this thought process. It just shook me to my core. I cried for hours alone in my room over this scary thought. Yes I have family and friends but it was SUPPOSSED to be my H who did all this. It was horrible. I called my sis and cried and she asked what I needed..I told her "chicken wing pizza"! So she brought me a chicken wing pizza and made me laugh. My leg was fine..bruised a bit but my heart was broken. But I know it wont always be this way..and this too shall pass...
Nature!!! Good question...LOL..no it wasnt that boss who gave him the "good" review ..it was another one ( a male) but I do know this woman did tell him he was sooo deserving of an excellent review and how dare the other guy only give him a "good" review...ohh boyy..enter a guy in MLC and an ego stroker...can you say deadly???
Oh and I do have a question.....
Since this has all started..when I drive I find my self always soo deep in thought..I hardly ever listen to the radio as Im so lost in my thoughts constantly! I get to my destination and think " how the heck did I get here?" scary. Anyone else do this?
M 44 H 44 M 22 yrs D 20 D 16 D 13 Bomb 1 8/25/07 Bomb 2 9/30/07 Left 10/01/07 OW..yup
Me? I'm scrambling to save my family. My H is just scrambling.
