(((Sage))) I'm so sorry for your loss. When my W & I moved into our first apartment together, my W said she wanted a kitten ... and not just any ole kitten. This one had to be white with pink ears and blue eyes. My father LOL when he heard that and said Good Luck finding one. Well couple of weeks later, after seeing an ad, we ended up at a farm house and lo & behold there was a white one with pink ears & blue eye. She was the runt of the litter, so we named her Peanut. I'm not what you would call an "animal lover", but this cat was so lovable ... many an evening she would lay in my lap. She was with us for many years. My W was heart broken when she was gone. Took nearly a year before she decided she wanted another kitten. This one is now a yearling and still is a wild banshee. Don't know if she will ever mellow out enough to sit on my lap.
Keep the fond memories close to your heart and when the time is right, there will always be oppurtunities to create new ones.
