Make things better by looking ahead....

[sage]

Caz -- oh my friend, where to start?

First off, I am so glad that everything is out in the open with you and h (and ow). and that you guys have talked about working on m. the latter part of your message confused me -- did h. finding out that you had talked to friends make him backpedal on working on stuff? the end of your post sounded confusing...

as for posting on the boards -- I guess you think that it is something that h wouldn't agree with? because it involves other people or because of db'ing in general? do you think it's something you can eventually bring up with him -- I'd hate to see you lose the support of the group and db'ing and totally selfishly, I'd hate to lose your support of me!

there are days when I'm sure that my h knows about the boards and reads my threads. neither one of us has brought it up and so far (if it's true) it doesn't seem to be hurting us any...'course your sitch is different and in a different stage, etc. There ARE times when I'm hesitant to post a rant because I worry that he's going to take it the wrong way...but this place is for me and has supported me through the darkest period of my whole life....

so what IS the deal with ow right now? is she out of the picture? it's awesome that h reaffirmed for you that it wasn't a pa -- I'm sure that's a relief.

the whole PI/camera thing -- well, what was he looking for? did he think that you were having an a? I hope you guys are planning on moving away from that sort of stuff, right?

let me know how you are. KEEP DB'ing!!! Look back on your posts and see how far you've come...

Sage