Thanks swl.....I said I need to vacuum...didnt say I was going to!! My carpet is the color of dirt anyway!!! So who is going to know!
I feel different. I know I am going to be ok no matter what.
Hope you are doing well!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Im having a bit of a down day. Nothing has changed. Nothing has happened either. H did text this morning just to say "good morning". Thats it....guess he is really taking the time he needs. Im wondering if he called and made the apt to talk to the therapist today. Im afraid to ask. Dont want to be percieved as pressure. Although he said the reason he had asked me to take care of it before was because he knew I would make sure he would do it...so i dont know if I should ask or not. I would love to ask what he has been thinking the last couple of days, but then again I probably dont want to know. He might be in a new chapter of this book of his and I wouldnt know it!
Just feeling a little lonely today I guess. Going to church tonight. Going to pray for more patience. More strength.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
He is an adult...he needs to make and keep his own appointments...I used to do the same thing for H and felt the same way...a C told me I needed to step back...I was not and am not his mother...he can make his own appointments...now he does...
To call and remind him would be totally wrong...you want him to grow up...give him the time to do it!
Lin...I havent said anything to him about it. Im trying to let him handle it. Its just that we have had very little contact over this week and Im not use to it. Usually there is some drama going on....quietness isnt the usual for us. Of course all I can think is he and the OW are scheming to get back together. Sorry....just thoughts I have. Trying to more forward anyway. Hard to do when things seem up in the air.
Just another quiet day. He texted good morning this am and texted me at lunch just to say hello...thats it.
Im trying to be patient.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Usually there is some drama going on....quietness isnt the usual for us.
See how the drama begins to effect you...why not just keep doing what you need to do and stop thinking about whether he is scheming with her or not...I wouldn't be suprised...he seems to live on the drama as well...it will take time for you both...he needs to grow up...this will take time...let you leave him to it...and you mind your own business...oh, if he asks for you to make the appointment...graciously decline and let him know that it is something he NEEDS to do...just remember YOU ARE NOT HIS MOTHER!...time to get your R on a balanced scale...him taking responsibility like a man and you feeling secure in letting him be one...
Some days I just dont think I can do this....Saw my H at the OWs house yesterday. Fussed at him a little when he called me later. Didnt handle things very well. He said he went over there to take her his mp3 player and he took her a cup of coffee. Ok, I said some stupid stuff. Like I thought he was trying to get over her and how if he was over there and evidently calling her. He just said he was trying to get over her. Said he didnt understand after wanting her to dump him, why did it hurt so bad. I wanted to know the same thing. He said he has an apt with the therapist on Monday and that hopefully this person would be able to help him understand what is going on with him.
I was upset. He was mad at me for "fussing" at him. I was mad at me for doing it too.
So I took about 10 steps back yesterday. This is horrible.
I quit!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
So I took about 10 steps back yesterday. This is horrible.
Oh, I'm sorry, do you get to be perfect? Or did you just forget to put on your super hero costume? If you have one I'll be soooo jealous.
You're human. You don't like how you handled it yesterday. Next time you'll do better. Don't beat yourself up. Look at all the strenght it takes to do this at all. Give yourself some credit.
Thanks Grace....no, I dont have a super hero costume....\
These are my thoughts today. I want to say to my H....If you want this to work, you gotta quit being so nice. You are a great guy and you try to be friends with everyone, but you gotta give it a break for us to be able to work things out. You have to do your part and show me that you want this. You have to ask her to back off.
I know, that might not be the best thing to say to him....but who knows. My h is so odd....He fusses because I dont call him that much or he has to call first or text first. Then if I do....I feel like Im being too pushy. Then he says why does he have to call me everyday...He doesnt!! He doesnt have to. I never said he did, but he brings it up.
Im just praying he will get the help he needs. God hasnt brought us this far for nothing.
AND no...Im not perfect. I know that.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
