Wow! You sound just like me. I am so insecure and it is one of the forces behind H leaving and wanting out.
I can't tell you how to stop feeling how you feel but I know that its better to smile and say nothing than to open your mouth and ruin it. Someone wrote here on the BB that they try and count to 10 before speaking or responding. Of course that helps with speaking when you shouldn't. Have you seen a C about these issues?
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
