arrgh...mini-rant here...

why does my h sound irritated 8 of 10 times when he calls me (for the first few minutes that is..). I mean, he called me? Is it because he feels like he HAS to an is thus annoyed? because he's just gotten off the phone with his girlfriend???? (ow) Because he thinks I'm going to be irked when I answer the phone? (Maybe I was like this in the past but I can't remember the last time I answered the phone with a dour voice here at work...if I'm feeling grumpy I just don't answer it!)

What feels like a typical am call -- he calls, I answer brightly, he sounds irked, I feel at a loss for what to say so I ask a question which is always a bad thing -- I still try to sound bright, eventually he warms up (maybe). Last week he called (this time it was in the afternoon if IRC) and I got off the phone w/in a minute because he sounded so irked and I just couldn't hack the "as if" stuff.

By the end of the conversation he seems ok but by then I'm mentally reeling....anyway, he ended with ILY so all was not lost.

OK, rant over.

My hopes for a drink after C session have been put aside -- our cat is very sick (dying she's has a tumor in her skull) and h is taking her to the vet. He has been such a rock regarding her during this illness -- so loving and warm with her. I seem to make her tense (nervous energy I guess) but she just relaxes with him. I'm glad he'll be with her.

--Sage


Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.