Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

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The C tries to be the voice of reason and I know she thinks H is being very irrational and unrealistic about the effects of D on the kids. But she's not the type who is going to tell us what to do. She is more of a guide. I met with her alone afterward (H had to leave) and she agreed that H responds to me like a robot. He seems completely removed.

When this first came out, H said he had been feeling unhappy for a few months, then it was 2 years. Today, he said been feeling some degree of unhappiness for the entire 15 years of our M (paging Treese...) Yet, he insists he is not depressed even though he also says this has been the worst few months of his life.

He also told me I was being narcissistic by not realizing how much this is affecting him. I DO realize it's affecting him, but only ONE of us is leaving. I am the one who is going to be left single against her will, having to re-enter a job market I've been away from for over a decade. This is not my choice, it's HIS.

Oh man oh man. I gotta let go. But first I have to call H and talk about what we're going to have for dinner. I hate living like this.