I am hanging in there. Yesterday was a bit tough, but I managed to get through it and I think today is going to be better.
Yesterday was the 4th anniversary of the day I proposed to my W. I really tried to keep it out of my head as much as possible. We had a R talk around lunchtime that wasn't good and wasn't bad. Just some things that had to be said and ironed out.
Then last night we spent an hour and 15 minutes together while getting our taxes done. It is the longest we've been together in a couple of months. We did okay. I think I managed to keep from wearing my heart on my sleeve. Score one for me. LOL
I did give her knuckles (something I usually do with the kids) and told her "Happy February 19th". She was confused for a moment and then remembered and smiled and said thanks. (We celebrated that date prior to this year.) I thought the knuckles thing was good as I physically touched her but not in a romantic way. It was low-pressure contact.
I am hoping that you are doing well. I am planning on backing way off in the contact that I have with W as well. As much as I'd like to put some distance between us it really isn't possible due to kid issues. But I am going to be backing WAY off when I can.
Well, time to head off to work. I hope that you have a good day. You are doing some great things for you, your M and your family. Keep it up. Try to remember that this is in God's hands. If you feel like you are going to let loose with another backslide, try this... Stop and count to 10 before you say anything. Then rethink what you were going to say and chose wisely. If you are like me, it may take counting to 20 or 25 to get calmed down. LOL.
Hang in there you can do this...you WILL do this!
-Bryan
Me-45 W-34 T-5 M-3 1/2 s-10 s-12 ILYBNILWY 12/26/07 Sleeping away from home at friend's house(because she says she can't get any sleep otherwise) 1/14/08 1/25/08 We tell kids she is moving out
