I sure understand the insecurities that you talk about. As a newcomer here, I have respected the advice and wisdom you impart. I read your sitch from start to finish and I see how much confidence you have gained in yourself. I believe that you have the strength to go the distance and make the leap. Don't be hard on yourself. Give yourself time and enjoy the positives that you are experiencing from your H.
Quote: What does he want? I think he wants to be loved unconditionally, to exist in peace, to be understood, to be heard, to be appreciated, to be loved, to be needed, to be important, to not be immersed in conflict, to be admired, to be successful. What else? Can I give him those things? Can I do it in the face of all of my fear and anxiety?
Sage, this quote hit me profundly. During my stress Sat ugly evening with H. H started spouting off things about him self and what he hoped to have. This sounded familiar. I know that you are questioning whether you can provide them. Take a step back from these questions and only look at one at a time. If you were advising me, how would you respond. Take a look at your fear and anxiety. I think as you continue to grow in self confidence these too will disappear.
Thinkg of you and proud of all of you accomplishments this far. I'll stop back, Caz
