Hi Sage, I'm sorry things have been so difficult with you of late. I am wrestling with my own demons too. But I am happy to hear you say that you had a great day with the hubby.
You describe the feelings of insecurity so well. I am feeling the same but I know it isn't forever. I am (slowly) beginning to realize that the one person who can make me feel more secure is the very person who cannot because she has her own demons to fight.
I don't want to overwhelm her with my sorrow and pain; I am learning that I have to trust that she knows what I am going through. I also have to allow myself to feel the pain. And now I know I have to begin to open myself and trust her, or I will never be able to move on to forgiveness. That's hard for anyone in our shoes, especially if you are anxious and insecure to begin with.
This is where we have to be to find peace. If you are having trouble seeing the great person that you are, then let each of us on this BB tell you what we see:
I see a woman of great strength and even greater honesty, who is honorably fighting to save her marriage.
