Had a discussion with WAW last night. She finally decided to share a bit of her feelings with me about things. I had originally told her that I wanted to discuss some things with her about bills, kids, our attitude, etc. I was and did not talk about the marriage or getting back together at all.
The conversation started off normal. We discussed some stuff with the kids and how the visitations were going. Right now I have them every Wednesday and Thursday nights due to her working night shift. And I also have them every other Friday and Saturday. It was at this point she let the first little nugget slip. She was having a hard time dealing with the kids not being there on the weekends. Well, I told her that it was something she was going to have to get used to because this was the situation she wanted. She said that it was hard and I agreed with her on that.
Then we moved to talking about how we were communicating. I told her that I felt hostility or animosity towards me and that we needed to work on that because the kids saw it too. She then dropped the second thing, she feels physically sick when she sees me. It is because she feels bad for how this went down and did not want to hurt me and does not know how to talk to me.
Now, I don’t know if all the discussion was positive but I came away with more hope than I had since the beginning. I am still going to move forward on myself and the kids. I am still not going to mention getting back together or anything. But am I wrong to feel some hope? Should I still be extremely cautious?
Wow, sorry this was so long. I did not intend it to be.
Ken Me: 37 Her: 38 Son: 8 (spina bifida) Son:2 M 6/24/1994 S 1/21/2008 Original Sitch
