Where is everyone? don't tell me you guys are actually working! (Ok, I'm at work but clearly not being productive!)
Feeling a bit sad. Maybe sad's too strong a word -- just wondering what to do next. 6 weeks ago H was actively making plans for us -- dinners out, movies, surprises. That seems to have stopped for the most part.
Did it stop because of the big R talks we had? Because ow got back in touch (right around the time his job told him that they needed him back)? Just because? Because I started doing too much? He asked "is it bugging you that I'm making so many plans for us?". Ha. As if.
He DID say over the weekend "is it bugging you that I'm talking so much?" (we were watching tv, I might have been reading and he was talking about "stuff"). I said with all of my heart "I love it when you talk with me" and I meant it. And I love it when he plans stuff for us to do together. I let him know that too.
Why can't there be a big old light on the top of his head that lights up when something is working?
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
