Make things better by looking ahead....

[sage]

one of the things he said that he now wishes I'd forget was..."I have to put my needs aside for my family" oh gee thanks so if not for the kids you'd be off with sussie cancer pants??

You crack me up, LL.

it took a while..there were still occasions when I'd foolishly ask h what he wanted and I'd get a 50/50 response..part of him wanting to be here and part of him not...h never fully believing that he could find the "it" here...wich was part of his fear in comming home..what if "it" isn't there...well I can tell you it took about 6 months of h being home and me trying desperately to keep my damn mouth shut..before h finaly stopped with the "I'm here aren't I, I came home didn't I, doesn't that say anything to you" (oh bite me!) and said...I believe we can be happy...I'm here because I want to be here...I'm sorry for this..etc...

Ah, this gives me hope... Wasn't it the most wonderful thing in the world to hear that?

My Db hat keeps falling off...when it's screwed on tightly, I'm ok. It's the rest of the time I get all caught up in what's not being said...actions...actions...much louder than words, right? The words will come, I hope.

and as far as not feeling attractive...hon I gotta tell ya...I aint never letting you meet my h unless I am right there with ya!!

Thanks!!!

Sage