Pass the 2 X 4, my friend. I feel the same way at times. What is wrong with me that H cannot work things out with me, yet OW can sleep with half of St. Louis and her husband takes her back? She gets what she wants, her H gets his family intact, my H is getting the D he most desparately wants, and here I am, the one that can't keep her man. Hugs hurt, I hear ya.
I know I am bringing this quote over from another thread lwb but I just wanted to comment on it - I hope you don't mind.
lwb - there is absolutely nothing that is wrong with you - well as far as we know(LOL). Ask yourself why OW feels the need to sleep with half of St Louis. Her H might take her back each time but the fact that she goes out and does it again is a sign of how unhappy/unbalanced she is.
I know it doesn't seem fair that she 'gets away' with it but is she not on a path to self destruction? Maybe your H is too but YOU are not. You are kind, loving, compassionate, intelligent - all the things required to live your life in a positive manner. Hopefully your H will wake up and smell the coffee before things are beyond repair, but if he doesn't I have no doubt you will be snapped up again as soon as YOU are ready. And all the hard work you have invested in sorting everything out will pay off in the future.
You are such worlds apart from your H's exOW. I do believe time is your friend here - every so often your H appears to show glimmers of his former self but maybe now he has realised what a fool he was he needs to 'release' his behaviour somehow - maybe now he is going out to try and run away from himself because he doesn't like himself; maybe he has just got a little bit further to go to hit rock bottom and then bounce back. I am a great beleiver in timing being so important and unfortunately luck has a big part to play to - you have done so well to keep the road home open to your H - he still needs to find the turning is my guess. Maybe, just maybe, Disney will show him that.
Hang in there........... you are great!!!!!
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
