Well I missed my lunch with Hope, but am spending the time with D3 (and had lunch with D6). D3 is sleeping right now.
I am at a loss re: H right now. He just texted me that we now need a sitter today for when I leave for work. I am used to him blowing my plans off, but to not be here for the D3 and getting D6 off the bus? It will throw my little schedule girl (D6) off a lot if a neighbor has to get her off the bus and she wasn't told about it first. I asked him how long we need a sitter (so I can tell the poor sucker I will rope into watching them) and he hasn't answered me.
I am sick to my stomach. All I wanted was a peaceful week before we left for Florida, now I am questioning everything. What is he doing that is SO important? Should I be taking this trip? At this point, the girls would be devastated if we cancelled or I didn't go.
D6 was helping me put on my jewelry this morning. First earrings, then bracelet and watch, then she asks "Where's your ring?". Sigh...
If only I had $1000 to drop on flights, I would love to do that. However, its H's family's timeshare and I suppose he would get first dibs to take them alone. They would be crushed if I didn't go.
H called my cell at 6:45pm. He was supposed to be home at 6:00pm. He is 'out with work people' and they want to go to the hockey game. Basically it went like this:
H: How late can (sitter) stay?
Me: You aren't home?
H: I can be in 2 minutes if you need me to be.
Me: (at a loss)
H: How late can (sitter) stay? I am out with work people and they all want to go to the hockey game. What should I do?
Me: Of course the kids would rather you go home to see them.
H: (silence)
Me: You need to call (sitter) to see how late she can stay if you are going to stay out.
H: Ok. Are you sure its ok?
Me: We are paying for a sitter we don't need, but the girls are fine.
H: You don't sound mad.
I changed the subject here. The sitter can stay til 11pm MAX. H knows this, I guarantee he won't be at home on time. I am at a loss here, but am trying to keep it together.
OMG Wow, it sounds just like me and H. I know how frustrated can be. and I know how much you want your kids to have their daddy before they go to bed. In my case, when I ask H to have kids, they often end up at his parents house.
I am with you, LWB! We will go through this!
Beauty
Me:31 H:29 D:7 S:2 M:7y Together:8y found out his A :07/07 bomb:11/01/07 s: 11/15/07 OW-1 is out of state; other female friends around first thread
Pass the 2 X 4, my friend. I feel the same way at times. What is wrong with me that H cannot work things out with me, yet OW can sleep with half of St. Louis and her husband takes her back? She gets what she wants, her H gets his family intact, my H is getting the D he most desparately wants, and here I am, the one that can't keep her man. Hugs hurt, I hear ya.
I know I am bringing this quote over from another thread lwb but I just wanted to comment on it - I hope you don't mind.
lwb - there is absolutely nothing that is wrong with you - well as far as we know(LOL). Ask yourself why OW feels the need to sleep with half of St Louis. Her H might take her back each time but the fact that she goes out and does it again is a sign of how unhappy/unbalanced she is.
I know it doesn't seem fair that she 'gets away' with it but is she not on a path to self destruction? Maybe your H is too but YOU are not. You are kind, loving, compassionate, intelligent - all the things required to live your life in a positive manner. Hopefully your H will wake up and smell the coffee before things are beyond repair, but if he doesn't I have no doubt you will be snapped up again as soon as YOU are ready. And all the hard work you have invested in sorting everything out will pay off in the future.
You are such worlds apart from your H's exOW. I do believe time is your friend here - every so often your H appears to show glimmers of his former self but maybe now he has realised what a fool he was he needs to 'release' his behaviour somehow - maybe now he is going out to try and run away from himself because he doesn't like himself; maybe he has just got a little bit further to go to hit rock bottom and then bounce back. I am a great beleiver in timing being so important and unfortunately luck has a big part to play to - you have done so well to keep the road home open to your H - he still needs to find the turning is my guess. Maybe, just maybe, Disney will show him that.
Hang in there........... you are great!!!!!
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
