To Jeff...the bullets ARE just spectres now...they can't kill me.
You learned the hardest lesson of all and you learned it well.
The road ahead is long and difficult.
Remember this: treat every roadblock as an opportunity. Every problem brings with it a gift; we seek problems for the gifts they bring. There is no *can't*: you will never reach a better life until you imagine it and allow yourself to create it. Argue for your limitations and they become yours.