Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

[cw68]

LMG, I totally understand how you feel. Last night my daughter cried and this morning my son did. I told my husband about both of them and told him that I wasn't telling him to make him feel guilt, but rather so that he'd know where they were mentally. Of course, I'd LIKE him to feel some guilt about it, though that really isn't the intent. We are trying really hard to co-parent well together.

Regarding the friends thing, I don't know if I could do that. Like you, I'd always want more. Yes, I want him to be happy, but I guess I'm not selfless enough to want that at my and my kids' expense.

After a bad day yesterday, and a sleepless night, I'm feeling a little bit better. We are having dinner here at the house together and watching a movie together after the kids go to bed.

Lately I've been thinking that starting a journal is a great idea. In fact, I think I'll stop by the store after I go to the gym tonight. Exercise does help.

I've been trying to do some 180 things, mostly successful, and I find that achieving the change makes me feel better regardless of him. One of my "issues" is procrastination; I'll start ten projects without finishing a single one. Recently I've been completing things every other day or so and it feels good. I think he's noticing, but at this point I don't even care.

Pick up gardening, read some classics, write some short stories, go to a movie by yourself, set up a regular volunteer gig, get your body doing something it's not used to doing. It refreshes. Go for a long walk, buy a yoga DVD, something, anything.