Out of the Blue?

[kturnernc]

Thanks for the words of help. I have thought about an A, but I some how don't think so with her. She has never been that type of person. But I am not saying that it is impossible, just unlikely. I think you hit it on the head about her independance. She stays home with our 2 boys and home schools the older one, so she does not really have the additional time. Around Christmas she was asking me if I thought other people find her attractive. As I had always found her attractive, I told her yes. But it did make me wonder why she was asking. She had always been insecure for years. So maybe she was just finally trying to overcome that. Who knows?

It is very odd to me which is why it is hard for me to get my mind wrapped around it all. She did a lot of stuff really quickly. As an example, I think i mentioned that the day after the split, she split the bank accounts up and opened her own with half our money.

Anyway, I am currently seeing a therapist (she always said that she thought i was depressed). I never saw it, but I know there are issues that can be worked on. I am starting to work out and tone what i have. I am also reading tons of books about divorce, repair of a relationship, intimacy, etc. Anything that I think will help. I have also picked up some art stuff to start drawing again. I had stopped years ago and have always missed it.

Anyway, being a fix-it type person, it is very hard for me to just sit back and let it take its course. I know not to push her, so I am pushing myself into a better life.