Hi folks. Just wanted to say I am still here and alive. I have been reading and not posting much as I was taking a much needed mental/emotional break.
The last few weeks I have had NC at all with my H. At first it was hard, but I am feeling so much better every day. After a year of constant emotional mishagosh and drama from my H, I find the day to day calm to be so healing. The final break for me was also pulling away from some friends I felt were adding to the emotional drama. For the first time in a long time I feel good. I feel like I can breathe. I am beginning to focus again on things and people I care about.
There is something to be said for just enjoying the simple pleasures of life and reaching beyond the limits of staying locked into a relationship with an unstable person. There are moments that I wish for my H as he once was. But for now I am happy to be at peace with myself.
