CONTACTING OW/OW'S HUSBAND

[kikidee]

I am getting a lot of "advice" from our (H and my) friend (whose basement my H is living in at the moment). She feels that I am going to absolutely lose it if I don't do something to change the direction of all of this. I have to agree with her. I am quite unable to sleep or eat properly and feel as though my health (physical and mental) are at stake. Me body is shaking inside. I feel as though I have a motor which refuses to quit. I am tempted to accept the advice since I don't feel as though it can get any worse. I think that this can only end in D at this point seeing as though I'm not sure that I'll recover from the damage he has inflicted. I am even starting to question why I am trying so hard when he is able and willing to hurt me so badly. I do have my limits, my boundaries, my dealbreakers. A few weeks ago I would have thought that it would take a lot more to feel as though I was done....that I would put up with much more of his crap. Apparently I have hit the wall. I feel beaten down. I feel completely disrespected. I am having trouble seeing the reasons to work so hard when all I get is shut down.