Getting stronger everyday!

[kissak]

I talked to my H last night. Got alot off of my chest. We talked about alot....including how insensitive it is of him to call me with problems about OW. Including the night he got drunk. He said he felt like I was the only person he could talk to about it. He apologized to me for all of it. He is dead set on having some much needed time to himself. I have given him the number of the therapist and told him HE needs to call and set the apt up. He agreed and said he was going to. He wanted to know why he had been doing all of this. He finally wanted to know the underlying issues to his undecisiveness and all of it. He said he hadnt had a moment of peace since all of this had started and wishes he had listened to me before about seeking help. Said he was amazed at how easy I seemed to have it and how he was struggling with money and stuff. I told him I had GOd providing everything I need. He talked about being wanting to be happy. I told him that he would never be happy as long as he was looking for Happiness in another person. He didnt understand, I didnt think he would, but hopefully the counselor will help him. He said he wanted to be alone and that he wanted time to get his thinking straight. He said he had talked to the OW and she said she felt like maybe it is just meant to be for them to be good friends and thats all, but she misses him. I told him that I would prefer him not talking about her to me.

Maybe some of you think this conversation shouldnt have taken place. But basically I told him that I would prefer keeping things the way they are because I can never figure out what page he is on. He flips his pages so fast that I cant keep up!! He said he knew that and that he was sorry. I told him I felt I was being mistreated emotionally. I told him I how wrong it was for him to lie and deceive the OW and to see her believe him was not right on his side.

Anyway....he is alone.