I too have been stuck in the rut of "I was so happy..." well that was then and this is now and I tell you what the NOW of living back then is not such a happy place.
Crazy, isn't it!?!? I do that too, looking back I really wonder what in the world I was holding onto so tightly!!
Sad is okay. Grieving is good, and a necessary part of the process. As you say, it's another layer of the onion. Do we throw these layers into the trash, or are we making some french onion soup, or what?
Fight those thoughts, replace them with positive ones, keep on keeping on You're really doing great, Cagz.
To help tpaschal and to also give yourself a little challenge, what would you do if your H behaved absolutely heinously to D11 with similar behavior to tpsachal's husband at the Christmas celebration.
"It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere."
--Agnes Repplier, writer and historian
You're really doing great, Cagz.
