Yesterday was a much better day that the 2 previous.
Thanks Grace to help me keep my head above water.
I have gone to my sisters and it has helped me keep my mind busy and laugh some too.
This financial stuff really has H's knickers in a twist.
Financial stuff usually does. Too bad! He has been taking between 5 and 7 hndred dollars out every week for months and spending it on who knows what.
I'm being very evasive about details sounding like I don't know, when really I'm letting the lawyer do all the dirty work. I don't need to get any more tension in my life.
When he walks around angry and very short with everyone, I'm answering his questions and asking to please don't be angry with me.
I also asked to to please be a little more discreet with his meds as they were sitting on the counter for two days.
Of course that was all my fault for snooping????? He was mad at me for even mentioning it.
Getting used to the spew...not liking it but knowing when he's about to blow.
He is runing around tring to get the other house in order and leaving this one.
I'm going about my business and things as usual. Saing good bye to him when he leaves for work and letting him know when dinner is ready etc.
Tring not to let his bad moods ruffle my feathers.
I have inrolled in a seperation/divorce support group that starts March 4. I'm excited to get it going as it sounds very insightful and I sure could use all the help I can get.
My parents will be coming home from Texas early to be here for Easter and have actually been very supportive. When the chips are down I guess family ties get stronger.
My SIL came by last night and we talked a little about what's going on. H will be moving 2 doors down from them. That hurts too. It ALL hurts.
His whole family can't believe how hard it must be for me. It is but totally letting go will be harder. I don't think I'll ever be ready.
He seems so dead final. I must let him go........
E
"Sometimes in the winds of change, we find our true direction"
