I just really don't get why they make us out to be these horrible unfeeling people.
They're the ones who had the A. Yet, we're the bad people. Senseless, illogical justifications. Nothing more. Mountains become molehills.
Somewhere inside they know they were hideously wrong in what they did. They have to make you look bad so that they don't look so bad themselves. Self-acceptance of mistakes and wrongdoings is a huge pill that many people can't swallow.
I had the dreams, too. And the shower has been my sanctuary for shedding many tears. Crying is an emotional and spiritual release.
NoCode, you do not sound like an emotional cripple to me. The fact that you've shed so many tears proves that. "A strong man cries; it is the weak man who holds back his tears." (Lakota Elders)
