PLEASE get out of there. I, for one, would never tell anyone to give up on their M, but my lord. The dead cats thing?!! That is a prelude for horrific violence to come. I've read and heard that animal abuse is very often a precursor to violence against people, as your H's statements about being able to hide bodies.....I am just so very sorry and scared for you and your family.
There has got to be help somewhere nearby. If you feel you can't go to the proper authorities, what about getting in contact with a local church? Some kind of support group? People will help if you ask for it.
Please be careful and take care of yourself.
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
