I am the last person I thought would ever find herself in the position I am in. I am doing my best to get out of this situation but I don't see it happening overnight. I don't have any family and there are no shelters in my area. He's made sure that nothing is in my name including the car I drive. He earns 63,000 a year and doesn't use a bank and tosses out his paystubs before coming home after cashing his checks at the bar he hangs out at. I'm given enough every two weeks to buy groceries and pay the electric and phone but not a penny more and I have to account for where every penny goes by showing receipts. If I need gas for the car I have to ask for extra money and account for why I need it.

Getting abused physically is the least of my worries at the moment believe it or not. It's keeping me and the kids alive.

Here's an insight on how his mind ticks. He buries his trash or dumps it elsewhere, he killed two of our cats and tossed them in the pool and left them there for us to find all bloated in the spring when it came time to use it, he claims he could ditch bodies where they'd never be found, he has punished me by telling me I don't deserve to live in a nice house. The ceiling has numerous tiles that have fallen out where the rain comes pouring in and the wall is buckled on two sides from where the rain warped it. I nailed the doors shut on all my kitchen cabinets years ago because the back wall was giving way, I had to put boards behind the sink to keep the faucet from falling back and I can't scrub it or it falls off, he refused to put salt down in the winter when there was nothing but ice outside even after I fell and broke my foot and sprained my right knee. He couldn't be bothered when that happened and I needed help getting to the bathroom. He told me to wet myself and he'd get to me when he got home. He said I was a heartless B because I wanted to put salt down when it could dry out the dogs paws and he thought I cared more for the dogs than putting them through that.

He has family that works for the Sherrif's dept. and will stand behind him 100%. I fear if I move out he will kill me but I plan to move out anyways. I'm putting applications out for housing but there are limited places available right now.