Just got back from the Harlem Globetrotters game. We had a great time with the kids. W was very nice we had some good laughs. I can tell her mind is elsewhere. Texting the whole time.
I wish I had a magic pill that would make her love me again. I dropped them off at the house and went back to work and got a thank you and hug and kiss from all except W. I was a little upset/disappointed but I am expecting nothing at all from her.
Funny story, i was talking to her best friend again today because W was upset that I spoke to her last week and was crying the blues with her. Had a 1 hr talk with her friend today which was really nice but kinda scary. She told me that W has not made up her mind either way but did say things were going better with her and I. She said wife was very confused and in a lot of pain. Then a funny thing happened, she told me she didn't love her husband anymore, LYBNILWY, and started talking about that. She said she was going to stick by him cause she felt bad and has young kids and he is a nice guy (Fat). They have not ML in a very long time. Then she asked me if I wanted to go out for a drink one night. Knocked my boots right off. We have always had a little attraction towards each other but I could never do that to her family nor mine. I think she just meant to talk further about our blues but still. Ego builder.
Since my BOMB in December and I have lost twenty pounds, started DBing in all aspects of my life, working hard at the gym, got new hair cut and have been dressing nice EVERYWHERE I go people have stopped me and said how great I look. One Very attractive lady that I have known for 20 years walked across the room at the Super Bowl Party just to tell me how great I look. I can't tell you how good that feels in this sitch because I am just a plain old ordinary boring 48 year old guy. I just wish the W would notice. Maybe she does but doesn't want to lead me on or give me faulse hope. That hurts. I really miss her touch.
There was another lady (D two years ago) at the soccer game from the other team that I have gotten to know thru the years because our boys are on the same team and she was in back of me talking very loud to a friend about how she has not been out on a date for a long time and where she was thinking about hanging out with some freinds on Thursday night a few towns away. She is a very attractive African lady who if this doesn't work out I am definatly going to call. I have a really bad atrraction to African woman. I think they are so bueatiful.
Well anyway I am dreaming again. It's good to dream, right? Takes the mind off the misery. I really think I am doing better everyday with a few minor set backs.
