I don't want to beat up on you Frank, so I'll keep this brief.
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I so want my life to be happy for once, I've had enough of the years of pain. I really have. I want to start being alive again. Happy again.
You and I both know that this happiness has to come from within you. Yes, your wife and your marriage can add to your happiness in general, but YOU have to find your own happiness.
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When she moves out I know I would have a hard time ever letting her back in again because I already have a hard time trusting. At that point I think it would be over for me.
A year ago you were prepared to let her go. Did you feel the same way then? Did you figure that if she left, you were done? You've trusted her through an affair already, and still want her by your side. I don't think you really believe what you've said here.
Time will indeed tell Frank. I truly wish all of you the best.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."