H never came back from Iraq, part 3

[MichelleLT]

Work wasn't too bad. Didn't work with my two favorite people, but also didn't have to work with the one girl I don't like. And there were two of us to close, so that was alright. It sucked though because they shoved us out the door so fast I had to clock off an hour early and our department wasn't very clean. I was unhappy for two reasons - I didn't like leaving the mess for the morning crew since it's a holiday today and a sale day and they would be busy as well plus I had to clock off an hour early and I had clocked off for lunch so I only got 4 1/2 hours on the clock. :-( Oh, I guess 3 reasons, my ankle was hurting too.

It is feeling okay this morning though, not as good as yesterday morning, but okay. So it's healing slowly.

No word from H, I'm pretty sure he denied my comment on his MySpace, and I'm still generally feeling frustrated with the entire situation. I just keep waiting for the next bomb to drop. At this point I figure he'll use his tax return to file, but then I think about all the other debt he seems to have and wonder if he'll try and pay some of that off. He just seems so resolute, since two weeks after I found out about the A when he made his "commitment" to OW and told me we couldn't have sex anymore, he has never wavered - D is his "only option for happiness" and whether I want it or not I am going to be D "soon." But it hasn't happened and some days that gives me hope, while other days it just annoys me beyond expression to live in this screwed up limbo. How come he gets to have sex and date and I can't? Why can't he just make up his mind and get this over with so I can move on with my life too?