Thank you so much for your words. They really get me through the tough times. You are very right. I HAVE to keep working on me and not dwell on the phone and text and such. Yes, I have to show him my changes. It is super tough right now though with the severe crisis situation our son is in. I so want H to accept that this is really happening and come home to us so we can heal as a family. I realize that showing him my positive actions will get more flies so to speak.
S8 is in so much pain right now and that kills me and I call H crying about S and tell H the only way we can truly fix him wihtout admitting him somewhere or heavily sedating him is to fix our M. I know horrible pressure but how am I to do this part of parenting alone?
Anyway, it is almost 11:30 so the kids and I are going to head out and do something. Don't know what yet but we will go have a good day together.
Again Bryan-thanks for your support and encouragement it always helps. Also know that althogh I have been weak the last few days that I am also always here for you too.
Heather
Both 35 T 19/M 15 years S8/D5 It's over bomb/ILYBNILWY 12-22-07
