Mandy, You and your son are in a far, far better place than your former ex. They reap what they sow and it's not always on our dime either. I truly believe that the man upstairs will see this through and he will come crashing down and then it will be too late to capture what he left behind. Yes, time spent w/children or lack there of, can never be replaced. Just remember, you stepped out of his drama and now that drama is all on him and that Mrs.
You sound so much better and I'm happy to see that you have some trips planned for you and your son. The garden will shape up nicely once the weather warms up and I have no doubt that life will be even better for the two of you as time moves ahead. No matte what happens, you are a suvivor and a success story. You are very rich in the wealth of family, friends and the love of your childen. What does he have? Bills, debt and the town "ho" as his Mrs.
Mandy, I wish you and your son all of the very best. Don't look back, look ahead to a bright future for the two of you! The best is yet to come!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.