bear...I'd love to be able to do mail order cookies! I turn away so much business here just because I don't have the time. I've done weddings and things and I'm hoping to one day turn it into a full time business. That's my pipe dream anyway. It's funny because H was never really at the supportive of it. Not that he minded me doing it, he knew I loved it...but whenever I talked about making a go of it he would talk about how we couldn't do without my full income. You know it's things like that until recently I hadn't been fully realizing. Maybe I wasn't that happy either. I was content...but H wasn't really going out of his way to support me and it had be going on a LONG time. It's how I know this crisis started so long ago.
Anyway...I'm a little peeved at H right now. This is my weekend with the kids. H saw D briefly Thursday evening when he popped in for something and then isn't going to see them again until Monday. On Friday night D got upset about something...she almost fell off a chair. No big deal, but she's 3 and it upset her. I got her calmed down and she was doing ok. Then she started saying how she wanted her Daddy. Now she often does this when something is wrong (getting in trouble or she's just upset). She says she wants her Daddy. But she had calmed down and was just saying she wanted to talk to him. So I called his cell and there was no answer. I had D leave him a message to call her back. It was cute. She was a bit upset though because he wasn't there for her to talk to. This was 6PM on Friday night and I still haven't heard from him. Why wouldn't he call? I think that he may be away on a trip somewhere with OW. I don't know why I have this suspicion. Not that I really care...it wouldn't surprise me. But should he not be available 24/7 for his kids? And if he happens to not be available shouldn't he call as soon as he is? I'm sad for D right now. I've tried not to mention it to her so hopefully she doesn't remember that she asked him to call her and he didn't. I have to talk to him about it...I have to figure out a way to do it DB style. I don't want to be angry, I just want to do what is right for her and he needs to available to her if she needs him. AND...if he is indeed out of town...shouldn't I know that in case I need to get a hold of him about the kids? Like in an emergency? He isn't thinking like a Dad right now.
That's my story. Any thoughts? J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out
