MLC is CRAZY!!! What a Roller Coaster!!!

[2ndnoah]

Thanks Soonerlady, This weekend was soooooo hard. Knowing that H was with OW for a V-day weekend just about drove me crazy. I have a huge imagination. Not good in this situation! I hate this. I am so confused. I am so crushed. The look on my boys faces it almost too much to bear! They too have good days and bad ones. H did not even call them on V-day to say he loved them. Even though they do not have anything to do with him right now, you could tell him not calling bothered them. SAD!

I know I cannot make him love me. I know I cannot make him come home. I know I cannot make him fight for our marriage. I do not understand this. I am beginning to doubt everything in DB book. I have tried everything....all the techniques and nothing. My H walked out and has never looked back. Why??? Why??? Our marriage was really good. Yes, it was not perfect, and we had our ups and downs, but what happened that H would just walk out and not look back??? He even told my parents (who think of him as a son, he's been in the family since he was 14 years old)...that he would never leave me. What the Hel was that??? He has no contact with them, our friends, my boys, me.....Why??? I just am having a hard time right now. I am just trying to make some kind of sense out of all of this and I just don't understand. If God is trying to teach me something, I sure wish I would get it and soon. I have always been a strong woman. I am stubborn and independant. I feel like this Divorce is being shoved down my throat and I hate that!!!