WAW- No longer a Newbie

[kiwi000]

My sitch in brief;

- WAW drops bomb June 15 2006, day after I return homew from month long business trip in China.
- I discover OM about the same time
- WAW tells outrageous lies about why she walked away, usually about me
- WAW demands I leave the house. Bad decision on my part but I did
- WAW has diagnosis of Post Natal Depression after her family intervene. Won't take treatment
- I find DB early and use it, keep my cool and act with good grace. That was good then and is even better now.
- I GAL, lose weight, find myself
- DBing starts to work at about 3 months, WAW starts talking about reconciliation
- Nanny finds WAW in bed with OM early December
- WAW now hostile and angry. Blames me for everything

I vaccilate between continuing DBing and just letting the whole thing go. We both made our wedding vows in front of God, family and friends and fidelity wasn't and isn't negotiable for me.

So I don't know if I am really DBing or not? I've done 180s and they are good for me, I have GAL and 50% of the time I wish we could find a way to reconcile. The other 50% of the time I don't know how I could ever trust WAW again.